Thursday, 11 February 2010

Daydreams and Dasies

Wow it's alphabet Thursday already my 2nd.
D  or  Duh  not that inspiring to me and as I type I do not really have any idea what I am going to come up with excpet that I have a title.
Why Daydreams well I do day dream , I daydream of what life would be like if I could turn the clock back but how far would I turn it?
Would I go back to the day my husband said he no longer wanted to be with me?
No because that was was a negative time.
Would I go back to the day we met?
Possibly because that was amazing Ian was and is a fantastic man who like me has faults we are not perfect God designed us to be but Adam and Eve ruined that. Jesus came to help but still we are not perfect.
I truly do not know where I would go back to in fact I would not I am where I am and God will guide me through this time with the fantastic family and friends I have around me.

I have to admit I do not like the next D word depression I have been told I am depressed hardly surprising people close to me say but that is no excuse the time has come to get my life in order and move forward to the next stage of my life and be the person God wants me to be. So with Prayer Pills and Pals I will do just that .

Ok The Next D is Dad, my Dad is old in the twilight of his life not the robust man he was but still my Dad and I do love him he is an amazing Grandfather and much loved by all who know him.

I guess I need to bring Daisies in here why a daisy well they are a flower I guess we all remember from child hood sitting on the grass and making daisy chains. I remember as a child before mum could cut the grass I had to go and pick them all so that they did not get mown I would then put them into an egg cup for her or make a dasiy chain . And finally I will have to include this

Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons

The whole peom is good but I especially love these first few words

Thank you for reading

9 comments:

Betty (picture circa 1951) said...

I'm a day dreamer too. Always have been. And daisies are my favorite flower. I hope you have a good day.

Jenny said...

I am sitting here and re-reading your post for the second time.

I can't say I know how you feel but I think I know partly how you feel.

Trying to get over bad things is confusing. You keep looking ahead and finding joy in other things and moments and memories...but there is still that pull of the past that weighs you down.

It's like floating in a balloon while you're tethered to the ground.

I hope your journey through self-discovery lets you soar free soon. I really do.

It's sometimes hard to get to that place of freedom but it really sounds like you are on your way.

You sound like an absolutely lovely woman. I hope you can recognize that!

D eep post...

A+ for sharing your heart!

Viki said...

Depression is tough. I've had to deal with anxiety problems last year. I went to the doctor though and it's helped tremendously. Good luck.

I love the daisy. Probably because
it's a simple flower and that's how I think I am.

GardenofDaisies said...

Keep looking for those good things in each day. Small things that make you happy.. like Daisies. And special people.. like Dad's. Sending you hugs.

Jo said...

Depression is really tough ... and no one around you will ever understand it fully ... only you know what and how it changes you. I am there with you ... loads of experience with that nasty beast ... just hang on to your day dreams, your dreams and never love hope ... it lies in every beating heart ...

mbkatc230 said...

Depression is a beast, and you are the only person who knows what you are going through and feeling. Hang on to your daisies and daydreams! They do help! Kathy

H said...

Psalm 46

Stay strong!

RNSANE said...

Well, I think it might be time to start daydreaming about what good things lie ahead in the future! The past is just that, the past and you know that God is there for you, as you said, and your family and friends so think about today and tomorrow. It's great that you are blogging. That's what I've done to help me deal with the great sadness I've felt over losing my forensic nursing position of 21 years....that set me back like nothing else in my life has.

Melinda Cornish said...

I battle depression too and I daydream a lot....sometimes it is just the ebb and flow of life......Melinda